Clubbing is one of those things where you either love it, or you don’t; and I don’t love it. In fact I hate it. I don’t get why anyone would want to spend £3 (at the very least) to essentially stand in a smoky room, unable to talk to anyone – or even hear yourself think because the music it too loud, unable to take two steps in any direction because the place is filled to capacity, and then some. The whole pint about clubbing is that you dance, but due to being incredibly self conscious, I can’t dance. That is not an over dramatization – I cannot physically dance; it makes me feel sick, self conscious (more so than normal) and I am more than likely suppressing a panic attack.
Now, I don’t care if other people like clubbing- Go, kill your feet and deafen yourself, have fun. But please sometimes take me, and people like me into consideration. I want to go out and have fun with you, I want to have a nice time, but I cannot go clubbing. Go clubbing, by all means, but not all the time. Please. Going clubbing every time you go out makes me feel left out because I don’t go with you. I cannot fully enjoy myself at pre-drinks because I am aware there is no point in me even being there. When I feel left out, I do stupid stuff.
I am fully aware not going is ‘my own choice’, and that I ‘could come if I wanted’. But that’s it, I cant come, clubbing makes me worse. I cannot put myself through that. What I am asking of the people who like clubbing is that occasionally, not all the time, but every now and again, you consider your friends who do not like clubbing, and that you just go to bars and pubs instead. The reason I ask this is because you don’t need to go clubbing to have a good night. Clubbing will ruin mine. – please take note of that.
P.S – I do not mean to sound whiny, please don’t take it as such. I just cant communicate with people all that well.